life sucks

so yeah im just really hating life right now i swear i feel like nothing is right.......i dont eat enough. i cant connect with anyone, i feel like im a fake 100% of the time except when im laughing which is hardly ever. i just hate life right now. life was doing better it was perfect for what most people look for as perfect..gf, getting along with family had friends, good health, all that and then my gmah goes and breaks her hip, my mom quits her job, school sucks, i mean i dont connect with my gf and i know its because of the distance, i just ugh i cant stand it it i feel so out of place and i just wish i could go back to a time where i knew what i wanted or who i wanted or back to a time where i really felt like myself and not like im living some strangers life. i dont eat inless i have to or my stomach is dying, which is hardly ever i mean i could go all day and not eat and im getting headaches constantly i mean i wish i knew whats wrong i have a good clue that its depression and liek i just dont knpw what to do about it, i want to be happy again i want to be able to smile again at people who i care for and not feel like im lying to everyone around me and lying to myself. i just want it all to end.i want to find that un-dying love, with a girl who i can connect with and i want to get along with my mom and all this other stuff, is there some cure for this???