i sawear!!!!!

im so fcuking just ugh i feel like im an empty shell. i feel so emotionless. my life is good. im doing good in school. i have a gf. i have a famil;y that loves me. i ask for money and i get it (not like that) i have good friends. i have a roof over my head and food in my belly and all i feel like doing is crying but no i cant even do that why? because frankly i have nothing to cry over................but believe me the urge is there and its so just ugh i hate this i hate feeling like this and i just want to cry and make it all better but i cant. i mean seriously i feel like i cant truly be happy in less in some aspect of my life there is sadness or a wanting and i mean why am i like this? why does there have to be pain in my life to be happy? i know i dont enjoy being caused pain and i dont enjoy being sad but inless some way theres pain in my life im not happy and seriously it sucks idk what to do......maybe i need to go talk to someone idk......i just dont know anymore