okay anyways

so yeah im dating her...even tho she lives in indiana she is totally amaing and i really like her and shes totally sweet. amaingly beautiful! grrrrr i just wish she lived in florida atleast i mean she just makes me smile and i want to hold her hand and to kiss her and to hold her in my arms. but shes so amazing and i am just happy to know that she wants me back.....even if its long distance i really do like her and im glad we met so yeah and hopefully she will come down here in march or whenever idc as long as i get to see her and all so yeah wish me luck.....if anyone reads this anyways

So......

im talking to this amazing girl. she is so sweet and beautiful....the only bad thing???? is she lives in indiana!!! i swear im living in hickville. i so wish i lived in indiana! gosh but yeah i was talking to her on the phone and shes pretty much awesome. shes beautiful and sweet and smart and totally gets me gosh i wish we lived closer! i swear anyways so yeah i want to move to a diff state anyways! but idk im thinking montana or soemthing hell idk somewhere there is mountians and all. my christmas was good i got everything i wanted almost but the main things were given to me and im so thankful for what i got and i wish i could give some lil kid what they wanted for christmas.....i think hats going to be one of my new years resolutions. to save up all my change all year and to give it to some little kid as a gift certificate for xmas who needs it gosh i hate this feeling........like theres so much that can be done and we dont do anything because people are to greedy now days. so far my new years resolutions are to be more considerate of others to be more out going and to do something for someone else other then my family and friens, some one in dire need. good? yes? well yeah im out yall! peAce

A womans body

so yeah ive been on a quest to watch as many lesbian love movies as possible and all throught out them so far the thing i have been looking forward to the most in the next has been the females body. Not because they are..no no no they are way more then that they are sensual and beautiful. The curves and the contours. The smell (although i can't smell them), im talking in general. The feel, the softness, the sensuality, the way they make my body want to SCREAM. The fullness of a girls lips, the way they speak. Its all so attention grabbing to me. I just wanted to get this off my chest. Wome drive me crazy! Thank god, he made women! they are just awesome. I love them!!!

OMG

so anyways yeah i swear no one here gets me. like everyone thinks i just fall for the next girl in line and its not even like that. I dont get attracted to just any girl who is sweet and has a cute smile. im only attracted to certain people and its not like thats everyone. because i ahppen to genuinly like someone im falling to fast. why is it now days that if you want to hold someones hand or kiss them every once in awhile your being to clingy? or your falling in love and its to soon? i swear i wish it was back in the old days when people appreciated the small things or the little intimate gestures. because i joke around and say oh i so would touch her in her special places....i fall to fast for a girl. why cant people understand this. i swear. its like anything you do now is seen as you looking for the one? why cant i just be a 16 year old but yet still know how to treat a girl? im not looking for love. i mean yeah it would be nice to find it im just looking for someone to give my affections to and have them returned. and if i find love good for me. I just want to have a gf treat her nice and be me. im a hopeless romantic and i just want to show the side of me that does have feelings and wants to be loved? why is the world so sucky?

Woohoo

OMG like yeah im so happy. cause im a genius! anywho yeah so i went to the toy drive and that is where i emt this girl who is totally cute but idk if shes even bi atleast! grrr i so do not want to end up haveing feelings for a straight girl! so complicated. but yeah anyways i whimped out when i went to go ask her for her email and like all day i have been looking for her on myspace and wherever else. well i finally found her and im like so happy. But yeah i hope shes not straight but i have a gut feeling she is but anyways id still be ehr friend because shes pretty cool. why do i always go for the people i cant have! *tear* but yeah atleast i found her right?

So mad at myself!

im so mad at myself! i went to a toy drive with my friend to help out and well i saw this really cute girl! shes was totally awesome. well yeah i didnt get her name and i wanted to. well anyways she was helping me pass out balloons and she was just so sweet. well she was there performing and before the performed she was face painting. and like we left after they performed and im so mad because im such a pussy, i swear i wanted to go ask her name and maybe get her e-mail...but no did i? hell no because she was around a group of people. bleh im so mad and i cant liek find the group she performed with! it sucks cause like i kinda really dig her i mean im actually attracted to her for more than her looks. and i barley know here. but i do want to get to know her. i dont even know if she is even gay! blah god hates me! why am i such a loser? i swear i need to get over this crap and be more bold. i guess now is the time to start

Life Bites

yeah sucking has been over used and i wanted something more aggresvie so yeah life bites. im so tired of dealing with this. i have feelings for my ex gf and they wont go away i cant hardly talk to her anymore i want but i dont want physical contact with her. i want her to know i feel but i dont want her to. as far as she knows im over her and id like to keep it that way shit is already weird between us. I just kind wish i could get over her, get her out of my system...move on. but its just not happening. bleh i am so tired. emotionally physically mentally. it never ends. i swear god or whatever magical being out there that controls my life hates me. i mean its not bad at all i have a roof over my head clothes on my back food in my belly and people who love me dearly but why cant i find that person to give my affection to? and when i finally do...im like the perfect gf except for a few things. im so tired of being single but i cant seem to let her go and its tearing me apart i miss her like crazy and i juat want to be with her idk. maybe im just sticking myself in a place i shouldnt even be..........maybe my heart just needs to be locked up so it cant hurt itself anymore idfk

Hello

Okay so yeah this is my first blog on this site. I usually write them on myspace seeing as how all my friends are on myspace. Yet this is why i joined....to make new friends. So yeah A little about me. My name is Dakota. I am a Lesbian and im loving it. Im a nerd! i love to read and just hang listening to music. My friends are very near and dear to me. I love them with all of my heart. If you choose to become my friend i will stick beside you through thick and thin. I love animals! Espically puppies! I have an obsession with superman! Not super whore! i love the color blue! My nickname is bloo or grace or just plain kota idc what you call me. My favorite food is chicken! and yeah this is about all i can say! But yeah im a fun chick and im just looking to have a good time and meet new people and some sexy ladies! haha!